Soli Deo Gloria
Well, I have contemplated starting a blog for many, many years. I have read them for a long time, and I used to get jealous of people that had them. Then I had to analyze that a bit. Why was I jealous? Because I wanted to articulate things, too. I have a lot to say, or at least I have a lot going on in my mind ALL the time. But I never felt that it would be very interesting. There was also the issue of my being a very private person. I mean, very private. I don’t typically share things with people until I know they can be trusted. But I kept getting this nagging feeling every time I thought about it. I used to journal all the time before I had the kids. Once they were born, so many of the things I used to do just flew out the window. Now that they are 6, 5, and 2, I am just starting to enter into the things that I love. Don’t get me wrong, raising my kids is something I LOVE. But you know, I have come to realize that each mama needs to have something that is her very own. Something that no one else has, that no one else can take away, that belongs only to her.
Music is that thing for this here mama. Music: listening to it, studying it, learning more about it, experimenting with it, writing it, producing it, collaborating to make it, sharing it, moving people with it, loving it. I came to a point in my life 2 years ago where my world was drastically turned upside down. My brother Nathan died. Out of the blue. 40 years old. Shocking. And while initially I wanted nothing to do with things that made me happy, (I mean, how could I search for happiness again when my sweet brother was no more?) I realized that pursuing my dream of making music would be the exact thing that Nathan would want me to do. It was the exact thing that he did. He was a fantastic DJ for many, many years. And while it didn’t make him a millionaire, he did what he loved. Music was everything to him, and as I contemplated his life and how much I would miss him, I realized that music meant the world to me as well. What better way to pay homage to him than by pursuing something that I have loved for my entire life? Something that the good Lord above gave me a passion for. So for the past year and a half or so, I have been recording songs. Songs that mean something to me. Songs that I have put my soul into…and blood, sweat, and plenty of tears. Today I am releasing an EP called “Soli Deo Gloria.” To God Alone Be the Glory. It is a collection of 4 original songs that are available for download for free for a limited time. If you would like to donate any funds, there is a place for that as well, but it is not necessary. If you like the songs, I would ask that you share it with others.
I would like to dedicate “Soli Deo Gloria” to my big brother, Nathan Abraham Rincon, who died this day 2 years ago. I miss him terribly, but I thought of him throughout this entire process. And while it was one of the most rewarding things I have ever done, it was also one of the most difficult.
The name of the blog: It is what it is. My husband tells me I say this all the time. And he is right. With the good, with the bad: it is what it is. There’s not a darn thing I can do to change things that have already happened: it is what it is. It sounds a bit dismissive and negative, but it isn’t. Part of the Serenity Prayer asks God for the wisdom to know the difference between the things you can change and the things you cannot. I’ve spend a whole lot of time thinking about how I could have done things differently in so many ways, but it is what it is. Move on. I’ve also spend time analyzing very good things in my life and diminishing or negating the good somehow. Recognize the good and rejoice in it. It is what it is.
So here I stand. Vulnerable before you, but glad to be sharing. I must not be as private of a person as I thought. And I am still not sure that it will be very interesting at all, but oh well. It is what it is.